lately i’ve been pretty tired and lethargic about everything. i haven’t been very good to my girlfriend and i don’t know how to change. my emotions are few and far between, it’s just an ever present sadness that nothing really eases… and i hate it… also i haven’t been doing very well in my exams… i’ve been getting c’s and d’s where my targets are a’s and that’s not helping… my parents and teachers think i’m not trying, but i am… i’m just not very good at things… i can do two thing reasonably well, music and drama, and that’s it. i’m not even getting the theory side of that up to scratch either…. i’m just a big mess and it sucks
